Tuesday, December 24, 2013
"Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful."
It's never really been any day special to me. Christmas was one of those days where my brother, my sister, and I would hope that the people who gave out donated toys wouldn't forget about us. My "mom" would sit on the couch & act as if she didn't care about how we felt or what went on in our heads. Why would you let your kids feel as if they were alone & that there was no one out there to save them? I'm not gonna let any of my kids feel that way again because I know how horrible it is to feel that way. I still wonder how did I grow up, not hating her? I always came back to elementary, middle, and high school with nothing new or no exciting family stories like the other kids. I'd be embarrassed most years and spend Christmas with one of my "friends", but that never worked out as good because no one understood what I was going through. I mean it isn't normal, but I thought that people would at least care to listen. I do remember maybe 2 or 3 Christmas's where my school & a charity gave us tons of toys and the looks my brother & sister had on their faces. I can say that each Christmas in the past was a learning lesson today. But, Christmas is about giving & that's one thing I've never stopped loving! So here's some advice,
"Appreciate & Love Everything." -Cole
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Monday, December 23, 2013
"The time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself."
It's not being alone that I hate. It's the fact that sometimes you really have to be alone in order to move forward in the world. I don't have any friends, but I do have EXACTLY 2 people who I contact once or twice a week (if they answer). They aren't even friends, they're people who I met, had an interest in, & they kinda stuck around. The reason I don't have any friends or a girlfriend is because I don't want anyone around while I'm going through this & most people just never have the time to listen to 2 words I have to say. The reason for getting into a relationship is because you believe that the person will treat you just as well as you treat them. (I guess it's just me) I don't talk much, but the few words I do have to say should mean something. It's kinda like I feel as if I'm an OUTCAST to the world & no one will ever understand why I operate or act a certain way. I like daydreaming alone, while I'm sitting along the river. Or roaming the streets in my small city. Or even listening to music that gets me to reminisce on certain things. The point that I'm trying to get to here is "Sometimes, it's good to like being alone...At least you know that there's someone out there you can trust." -Cole
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Sunday, December 22, 2013
''Haters never win. I just think that's true about life, because negative energy always costs in the end.''
The ones that smile in your face, but despise you secretly. Or the ones that tell you to give up because it's to hard. Or the ones who tell you that you'll never amount to anything. Or the people who pretend to care for you, but disappear when you really need em! I think that everyone gets the idea lol I don't really pay attention to the people who aren't included in my day to day life. I mean yeah, I love my family, but most of them can be secretly haters. I try to keep my circle small, trust nobody, & don't expect much from others. (because no one owes you) I keep to myself & I don't let the actions of others interfere with what I do. I GIVE because I love making other lives better in every way I can & I'm not gonna stop for anyone (even if someone betrays me), I SMILE because it lets me know that everything's alright & it reminds me why I do this, I LOVE because it's one of the only things in life that are real & I believe that depending on how you use, determines where you go once we pass away, & I DON'T HATE because it ruins you & there's nothing to gain by hating someone else. ''You can let the haters HATE, but don't let them control'' -Cole
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Saturday, December 21, 2013
''A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.''
It's the only way to receive what I believe to be true happiness. When I was in school most of my teachers were unhappy, but made it seem like it was okay for you to give up on your dream or settle for something less. They always say ''make sure you have a backup plan'' & I always asked ''What if this is what makes me happy?'' there was never an answer; always another excuse for giving up. I don't believe in going into something just for the money or material possession. In order to be extremely successful is to focus intensely on ONE specific goal or task & work insanely to complete it! Don't give up on what you love, because nothing else is going to give you that same feeling. I like to day-dream, meet new people, write blog post, come up with ideas, the benefits of working hard, and make my loved ones smile. I feel that through writing I can do all of each & will continue to do so. The art of storytelling excites me. I love helping out others & I know that if one day I were to make it BIG in the profession that I'll show how much I love & care for others & the less fortunate.
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Thursday, December 19, 2013
“I always think of each night as a song. Or each moment as a song. But now I'm seeing we don't live in a single song. We move from song to song, from lyric to lyric, from chord to chord. There is no ending here. It's an infinite playlist.”
I love reading because of the unique experience you get. That moment when you finish a book, look around, and realize that everyone around you is carrying on with their lives as though you didn't just experience emotional trauma at the hands of a paperback. It's like you're entering someone else's world, while going through a learning experience also. The reason I believe that I'm obsessed with love stories is because it gives a feeling that nothing else does. Love is something that most don't experience as much or have less knowledge about. I connect with love stories because that's a moment I've longed for since I can remember. "The feeling of being in love" - Cole
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Tuesday, December 17, 2013
¨There's nothing wrong or evil about having a bad day. There's everything wrong with making others have it with you.¨
¨I see myself as an intelligent, sensitive human, with the soul of a clown which forces me to blow it at the most important moments.¨
Friday, December 13, 2013
¨Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody; I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat ¨
I remember those long nights as a kid when I used to hope that this would be the last day that I'd hear gunshots or about someone dying. It was weird because I lived in a house filled with people, but I always felt as if I was alone, you know? No one asked if I was okay or told me that everything would be alright. Even when there were no lights, gas, food or electric. I mean I didn't ask to be here, so why should I have to suffer for someone else's mistakes? They said that if you just pray to ''god'' that everything would be alright. But the more I prayed, the more things got worse... I guess that was a sign. That may be the reason why I care so much for the subject or why I want to make it out of here so bad! There are long cold nights, the days are lonely, & the ones that are supposed to care for you are no where to be found. Why me? What did I do to deserve this? I didn't ask to be here! But, I might as well continue to connect with what I love while I'm here.... -Cole
Monday, December 9, 2013
¨If they substituted the word 'Lust' for 'Love' in the popular songs it would come nearer the truth.¨
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
¨People instantly assume you can't have a platonic friendship with someone of the opposite sex. I think this may be specific to L.A. - or America¨
People instantly assume that you can't have a platonic relationship with the opposite sex, but I don't believe that it comes close to the truth. I feel that first we should get to know each other and we become friends FIRST because if we aren't friends...how will we communicate? Sex and looks have nothing to do with a relationship because if one day I have cancer and I'm 85 yrs old, I expect for you to be there. ¨I'm pretty intense when it comes to relationships, platonic ones as well. If I feel a connection with someone, I'm willing to go there.¨ -Cole
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I remember the days I wanted to die. No one paid attention to me, no one cared, and there was no reason for me to be here. No one would've known why I did it because I didn't talk much and I always seemed to be happy. But, then I had to think about what it is that I'm giving up. Killing myself is something that is permanent and there's no coming back. I started to dream about the person I TRULY wanted to become and that I'll put the rest of my energy into becoming that person! If they didn't love me before, once I get to where I'm headed I know for a fact that they will then...Nothing is easy though. It still runs across my mind, but my dreams are more important and I'm not doing this just for me!
¨If you know people who are suicidal, or if you know people who are bipolar, depressed, have panic attack disorder, just be there for them. They're going through something that's very, very hard.¨ -Cole
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Tuesday, December 3, 2013
"To be yourself, you must help yourself. Be the best you can be. When you make a mistake, learn from it, pick yourself up and move on."
No one can tell you who you are or who you're supposed to be! I had to learn it the hard way..it eventually cost me a lot, but o well. Being yourself is when you express how you feel about something, despite the odds or other opinions. Having the guts to chase your dreams and create whoever it is you want to be is being yourself and no one can take it from you. -Cole
''I like the idea of doing something that everyone never really paid attention to..''
I love the fact that I can make a career based of my personal life & discussing with the world how I feel towards things. Lorde is an AMAZING musician and I love her pure heroine album! When I'm listening to music I look for a certain connection and feeling with the artist. Music should make you think...I tend to daydream while listening to music because it's the only way for me to relax lol. "No one really paid attention to how quiet and wise I was (or still am), so I write about it & hope that the world notices how informative I can be." -Cole
Monday, December 2, 2013
"If you truly love someone, then they never leave your heart....only your side. <3"
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''Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.''
I don't believe that you have to look a certain way in order to be beautiful. I believe that the most important beauty comes from within. In a relationship/friendship their physical appearance isn't important because all of it fades...What matters is the person that lies within. I love it most when someone can make me smile, bring me up, laugh, and just have a good time without worrying about what the person looks like or what clothes they wear. "Nothing else matters if you can't make me smile" -Cole
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I got a girl pregnat at the age of 15, I lost my virginity at 14, I've been lost ever since my sister passed 11 yrs ago, I've been in love once (I think)....Oh I have this weird fantasy that one day I'll marry Nicki Minaj lol...I know it maybe a little TMI, but o well. I wanna know at least one of your deepest darkest secrets.. "It felt weird telling the world things that I'v never discussed to anyone, you should try it." -Cole
"Sometimes you just have to die a little inside to be reborn and rise again as a stronger and wiser version of you."
Be creative and always follow your heart. Don't let ANYONE tell you that you CAN'T or SHOULDN'T do something. You're an individual, so therefore you have the right to your OWN opinion and decisions...If you know that within your heart of hearts that it's for you, why not give it a shot? -Cole